just saw the senti videos from IITB... People told something about.. actually one thing .. "DIL KAA SAAF".."BAHOOT SIDHA"... and for most of the frnds i haven't commented at all... infact if i have the comment is not serious, its a bastard comedy.... i donno why... but i have just realized i don't know how to express myself. The point which i do have in my mind may be clear... or i think may not be... but i m not able to express the point in proper words.. and this is why people do start to feel me as their "CHOTA BHAI" sort of. You know the one who doesn't have any fundaes abt life... he is just cheerful.. baccha saa.. don't know how to deal with people... actually all this may be correct.. just that i m taking more time to realize it. Always i have thought about the "Word power".. the power to explain your point... the power to Express yourself is the one to control the world... which i do lack.. infact if there exist a word just opposite to the person who owns the word power.. i m that "WORD"... why the Fish i was not selected in any of the interviews... my thoughts are absurd... actually they are jumbled... not organized... to be exact. They just flow... and this is not matter of being poor at language "English"... same is the scenario for hindi language too.. i just can't express myself... i can't speak the words which fits at the situation...
The only thing which stick me to being the same is "LAUGH" which i get by cracking cheap abusing frustrated(mood) jokes... Same direct me to think that i m being liked (but not the way i want)...
What should i do?? i want to improve myself.. obv...
1) improve vocab... may be i can be more expressive with more words
2) Start reading
3) Start writing
first is tough... 2nd and 3rd can be done... 3rd is infact solved as in i can write the blog
but reading...what should i read?... and actually for checking myself what i can do is to communicate with some knowledgeable people on their topic and discuss it throughly
For reading choices are
News P
Novel
Philosophy
etc.
This is to organize my thoughts... It may seem very trivial to me at later stage.. but same is the prob as i stated above with me right now.
Post ends on 21-22 oct 00:13 hrs